Maya

 I don’t know how to start this post as it is very sensitive for me to talk about it and I personally do not know how I feel about this but I think it’s necessary for me to talk about it. A while ago, I felt a small lump in my right breast, I didn’t think too much about it then but this last week, I have been getting more and more paranoid about the lump and kept bothering and squeezing it; So, my mom decided to take me to the doctor. It was a pretty hard decision to even consider going to the clinic because my dad has been out of the country for about a month now and we had to leave my dog somewhere.

Anyways, after the long wait, the doctor concluded that I have a 3 cm fibroadenoma. It is not cancer, it is benign but it grows day by day, gathering tissue. Surgery is required to take the lump out, and it should be done before the lump grows larger. These lumps are very common in young women and have no reason to form, they are kind of like a mole, no reason. But the thing, I was kind of not okay with was getting a sonography on both my breasts to confirm that it is a Fibroadenoma and make sure there aren’t any tiny lumps. The sonographer was a dude. Yes, I wasn’t that comfortable with a dude doc putting gel on my boob but I am glad it’s over now.

So, the only option is surgery and thinking about it kind of terrifies me because this is actually serious. By the way, we are going to call the lump Maya.  I just have mixed feelings about Maya growing inside of me. I think this surgery just makes me appreciate my life better, I know this isn’t a very major surgery that has a huge risk but it terrifies me. I would have never imagined this to be… confusing.

I will come back next week with an update about Maya. But on the side note, my dog turned two this week!

I hope you have a great day/night.

-Sahana