Last month update!

 Not gonna lie, nothing interesting has been happening in my life. And no, Eric and me are not a thing, yet. 😉 My counsellor told me that since nothing has been happening in my life, I’m trying to compensate by creating drama and maybe what she’s saying is true but I have too much pride to accept that. So, this post is just going to be small fragments of my life here and there. There is no order.

I started growing my nails and also trying to get rid of my habit of biting my nails; Not going to lie, its fairly difficult but not going to give up. Around a month ago, I joined this site called 7Cups (It’s basically a mental health website, where users can rant or talk to someone.) So, I became a listener there and I have been realizing that my problems are nothing… There are people on earth with abusive parents, worse mental health, who think giving up is the only option and have been hating and hurting themselves. I’m starting to understand that maybe people aren’t as they portray themselves to be, deep down everyone has things and secrets that they don’t want a single soul to know. Also realized that the world is filled with people who just want to be heard, they just want someone to be there for them, nothing more and it is honestly so sad to hear that everyone is so focused on themselves that they forget to check in with others and how they are doing.
So, check in with your close ones to see how they are doing!

I have been listening to cold/mess from Prateek Kuhad on repeat these last few days after seeing it on Eric’s playlist. I don’t think he realizes that complimenting someone on their playlist is like a way of flirting but I still have feelings for him. But I like how I know that me being with him, us in a relationship is impossible. I don’t want to give up and regret that I never told him about how I feel but I know I will not have to, for him and myself. To not break my heart, again and again. I sat next to him a few days ago for the NSO exams and it felt like the first time I ever sat with him, with old feelings resurfacing and the feeling was something indescribable, I was both happy and sad.

My family came over for Diwali this time and I have to say, I had a shit ton of fun. My cousins and me went on long drives, shopped and drank faloodas, and I truly miss them. There was a Prateek Kuhad concert at Phoenix but we got to know last minute or else we would have gone there. I feel like this is the last Diwali I’ll spend in India and I am excited for what’s ahead of me but at the same time, I don’t want to leave the place where I’ve lived all of my life.

My dad left for Miami again. My mother surprisingly took me to the mall and bought me an expensive dress. 😱😱😱 We went to this restaurant that I have always wanted to go to for a few months and to be honest, it did not live up to the hype. There is this restaurant named rainforest in phoenix, it’s like the name suggests and is a forest themed restaurant. I would rate it a 6.75 out of ten.

There’s this guy I am talking to right now and he’s like pretty cool. Yeah that’s it, besties.

Listen to cold/mess! And enjoy this special picture. 

I hope you have a great day/night ahead! 💋💋💋💋

-Sahana